You do not need to feel like an adult, you need to feel whole again.
That all parts of you are welcomed equally. And only you can decide that, no one else.
That the whole you is welcome, the child, the adult, the grandma, all in between.
You want an adult self because that is what you’ve learnt you need.
But then none of what you will do will be with joy, it will be just serious, obligation and pain.
A child, you feel like that because you are repressing it.
This approach, feeling like you need to be all serious.
But you need both, you need all.
The child comes back at you because you try to suppress it, feeling like okay, I should feel adult instead.
What we believe about our child parts is that they are young, dumb, naive, that they don’t know much, we heavily underestimate them.
But this is one of the biggest myths there is. They were here the whole time.
Your inner child has infinite wisdom.
You came to the physical as a child, but your Soul is no child. You confuse the physical child with your inner child.
When you feel like a child, you don’t feel ready, you feel like it’s too big and you are too small for the task, you are in this illusion of the physical child, because your development did not happen fully, stages were jumped/skipped.
Your inner child has nothing to do with this physical child.
It does and doesn’t.
Your inner child knows everything; it needs your inner parent, you need both to function: your inner mum, dad, uncle, cousin, aunt, lover, all.
You experience them to integrate them all.
That is what integration is about.
When you feel like a child, it is because the child in you was suppressed, it could not develop properly, it had to become someone else, it was not.
It developed into a different adult than it should have, and so it reclaims to start where the error started. To do it again and better.
To meet your needs as it was supposed to happen, to reparent yourself in a loving way. It is not an easy game, not all pull it off.
You do not need to become a child to heal your child self.
Your child is not impeding you from doing your serious adult stuff.
You should not feel all ready for all the big adult tasks, trying to suppress the feeling of being too small for it.
You need to integrate, to let that child grow as it needs.
You claim to love yourself, you need to love this child in you. People who feel like they do not love their child have an extreme aversion to their inner child.
Anytime you feel like a child, your child has something valuable to say about the situation. So just listen. And you will never burn out again, you will never make a decision you will regret.
Lose the belief that the child does not know, it knows a loooooot.
The inner child knows everything about your purpose, what you should be doing.
Your inner child is a part of your soul you relate to as a child-like state.
It is not a physical child; it is not a part of your soul that got stuck as a child, far from there.
It is a part of your soul with characteristics that you consider to be of a child, but it is just a label.
You classified child’s behaviour, man’s, mother’s, woman’s, aunt’s, teacher’s behaviour and put them in classes, but it is just an illusion.
It is still your Soul.
You suppress it because your physical child was suppressed when you were a physical child.
Because they made you believe it knew nothing, immature, childish..bla bla bla, all the bad stuff.
Now you know that there is a richness, an equilibrium to your inner parent, to the serious, to the burned out.
Thank you.
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