Dear all,
Fear of loneliness
When we were born we were living our truth, walking our path, and not judging whether what we were doing was “good” or “bad”. We were simply minding our own business.
This started to slowly shift as we began to get inputs from others, adults, parents, caregivers, and other family members. They would begin to tinker with our preferences, and our choices and show us what was acceptable or not around them. We would say that we preferred A, and they would say, oh are you sure you do not prefer B?
We would quickly understand that to not end up alone, to have their love and approval, we needed to follow their guidelines instead, which would secure us to be seen as well-behaved. While this was vital for us at a young age to survive and socialise, these adaptations need to naturally evolve as we grow up.
As we get older, things we comply with for the sake of others start to become bigger and more and more frequent, we start to live by the reflections in the mirror. The issue is that living in fear, fear of not being a part of the group, fear of not being loved by the older ones, and the ultimate fear of being alone leads to us betraying ourselves. We betray ourselves again and again because we do not accept parts of us anymore that do not fit the mirrors around us.
From loneliness to judgment
What we judge about others, is the direct mirror of what we judge in ourselves. We do not want to go through the pain of people judging us being “wrong” again. But since our attention is already on it, we now recognise this trait in everyone around us and feel relieved to be able to criticise it in others. We project our pain and it suddenly becomes much more bearable.
From judgment to polarities
I hope you start to see that the beginning is us. The beginning of all this lies in us, rejecting us, judging that our conduct was “good” or “bad”. When starting to move from fear to love, when we start to give love to us instead of judgment, we start to open our hearts and we can become the pillar of Light that we truly are.
Judging things as “good” or “bad” is an illusion. It is an illusion of this world of polarities, where we are all invited to pick a side, the right vs left, the men vs women, the capitalists vs socialists, the democrats vs republicans, eating meat vs vegetarianism, dark vs light, good vs evil, Christianity vs Islam and I could, unfortunately, go like this forever. We are invited to pick sides, we are even pressured to do so, but the time is now to see beyond this.
To see that this game of polarities is here to entertain us, but the goal is to see the bigger picture.
Every single life of service and every single life of murder are equally important. It is hard to wrap our heads around it, but every part of us, every life we ever lived is equally important and we need to accept it.
We can find hundreds of what we consider mistakes in our current life that bring us all kinds of feelings of sadness and powerlessness. This is how it happened and it is not like this anymore, and that’s it. If you feel the resistance coming up, I see you. Your mind will try to find the worst-case scenario and will try to polarise because it is what it has been used to doing since you were educated.
Find the Centre
We can choose at this moment to walk the path towards love, towards integration. Do not feel bad for what you did or did not do. This is how it happened and that is alright. Nothing is lost and it is not too late. Every part of you and every life you live is infinitely important.
Now, this is the Neutrality.
You find the middle, you find the middle place from which you do not see in duality, in opposites anymore. Because when in the Centre, things do not appear as polarities. There is the Center and there are concentric circles around it. There is no polarity, it is an illusion.
There is no good or bad.
There is Love. And there is fear.
There is acceptance. And there is rejection.
There is just one thing, the Love, the God, the Source, the Consciousness and by living in fear, judgment, rejection and polarisation you live further away from it, you close yourself to your true nature, the channel of Light, the pillar of Light.
We’ve had so many lives and done so many things close and far from God. And he doesn’t judge us for any of those, he loves us for who we are because that is all God does. Loves everyone without judgment. Gives everyone a chance to come back to Light, no matter what lives they lived, no matter what they said about Him or did against Him.
The Centre is the truth.
The Centre does not mean good or bad.
The Centre means acceptance.
The Centre means openness.
The Centre means Love.
The Centre is the channel of Light and Love.
The Centre is where we meet and become one with God.
Thank you from all my Heart,
Gabriela